Missing out

It’s a cold night out
I don’t know what to do with myself
From my window
I see people living like there’s no hell
No payback time

I wish I could be that careless
But I seem to have lost that spark
For some time now
I wish I wasn’t so afraid
To come out of the darkness
But it’s the only place where I feel safe

It’s been way too long
Since I’ve seen the world
In a different light
Than the one that left me
Wanting to hide forever

I was left behind
And I didn’t mind
Until I realised
How much I was missing out
Missing out

So scared of my pain
I froze, welcoming the numbness
And feeling nothing
Seemed like winning the battle

But who was I to think
That escaping would make me happy
The silence is deafening
And the loneliness is slowly killing me

It’s been way too long
Since I’ve seen the world
In a different light
Than the one that left me
Wanting to shut it out forever

But as I open my eyes
And I look outside
I see how much I’ve been missing out
Missing out

Because there’s no tears without laughter
No regret without the thrill to dare
No flying high without going under

And the price you accept to pay
Is proof that it’s all worth it in the end…

It’s a cold night out
I don’t know what I’m still doing inside
As I walk out the door
I am scared but I finally feel alive